DAYnamics Show OTC43: How Does Our Emotions Get So Unbalanced?

DAYnamics Show OTC43: How Does Our Emotions Get So Unbalanced? (OTC - Off the Cuff is an unpredictable and an unstructured recording. It was recorded on the road so variations in sound may occur) 

I talk honestly about how a certain circumstance brings unbalanced emotions to the surface. I share how a major trigger turns into release, repair, and a clearer way to live with more emotional balance and grace. 

• emotions as energy in motion. They are mine to balance!
• sleep disruption, caretaker alertness, and why triggers hit harder 
• people (my Momma in this case) as a mirror and the “soul perspective” 
• a private trigger that opens up childhood material and emotional release 
• repair, apology, and choosing healing conversations 
• “evolution” versus “lessons” as a more supportive frame 
• practical tools like a morning ritual and a personal feel-good list 

Transcript

Welcome And Centering Breath

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Hello Air Dynamics community. This is your host, Marianna, here to welcome you to the Dynamics Show, where personal development meets daily life. On this podcast, we know that there's no one size fits all path in life, which is why each episode is crafted for you to align with your own dynamic self on your terms. Our journey here is filled with options, opportunities, and infinite possibilities. So let's uncover the reason you are here because we always hear what we need to and explore what is possible together. Today I'm doing an off the cuff, but it is about emotions, and it is to finish our second podcast of this month for emotion dynamics. Again, not sure of the title, however, it usually just comes to me after the fact when I'm completely done, since an off the cuff is exactly what it is. Just whatever I'm thinking in the moment. I haven't done one of these in a while, although when you think about it, a lot of podcasts are off the cuff, unless you've prepared it and you're reading it word for word. But then it just doesn't have the same oomph to it because there's so many things that can come that you want to share in the moment. So again, why this subject? Well, again, it's motion dynamics, it's emotions, and it's an important one. It's an interesting one too, because emotions are energy in motion, and they're just been so raw and real this time given that I had the opportunity to be with my family. Now please note I'm in a different area, a different setup than I usually am, so if it sounds a little bit different, so be it. Again, you will always hear what you need to hear. I also like to set the tone for our time together, as it's just more than a podcast. We're here to remind you that flowing through each one of us is a dynamic energy that is yours to use and interact with every single day. That's why the day in dynamics is capitalized. It is a daily choice to live dynamically. So let's take a moment to center ourselves, take a deep breath in and out. Be fully present and listen with an open heart and mind since we know what we focus on does expand. So let's ask you this, our audience, our listeners. How are you doing this month with emotions? How are you doing with being more aware of them, being more conscious of them, letting them throw flow through you? Like, do you have a more conscious outlook on your emotions, knowing that they're not against you, they're for you. They're just moving through you. So the alpha cuff is unpredictable and unstructured, but I always do my opening and my closing from all of my podcasts, so it's remains consistent for those that listen to it on a monthly basis. I'm gonna talk about emotions, and now let's just get real about my experience that I had again with my birth family, being away from my husband and my daughter to attend to some health concerns that were in the family. And with my mama, really, let's just be real. She had fallen and she had fractured her hip. And then when they went in to do the surgery, it ended up that they replaced the hip instead of try to fix it. And so then there was a time frame where she went to a bit of a rehab. And then when I went to spend time with her in her home to help her readjust, to help her do her exercises, to do what can she do, what can't she do, what kind of help might we meet need for her, learning all the idiosyncrasies of how my 92-year-old mom, which we did a podcast, and you'll hear that at some point around family, is now going to live with having to walk with a walker most of the time, and sometimes just with a cane going up and down the stairs. So anyone that has had a hip replacement or any kind of knee or hip or whatever knows that there is this time for rehab, and it's really important. Do your exercises. Along with all of this, though, there came huge emotions that came up. Now, my mom lives in a small home by herself. She is very independent for 92 years young. And it I found it very interesting with the emotional side of things because it's like when you go to visit someone and they have their own way of doing things, they have their own routine. So there was the emotional balance that needed to happen there. Because for me, and some of the ways in which things were done, I'd be like, well, maybe it's better this way, mom. You know, maybe this makes it a little bit easier on you if you do it this way. But no, it was her way. And that's okay because she lives it, she does it, she's in a routine. And if change makes her uncomfortable because she is in like this pattern and routine, then I learned through some emotional conversations that she's gonna do what she does, and it's for a reason. And she said this statement to me, and it's usually a statement that I say to others, but she said it back to me. She goes, I'm not doing this to make anyone else feel better. I'm doing this for my own peace of mind. I do it my way for my own peace of mind. I've thought it through, I've tried it all different ways, and this is the way that I want it to be. And I thought to myself, you must be listening to the dynamic series. For her to say that back to me, because I think sometimes, you know, how they mothered you, and now you sort of, as they grow in age, we almost like want to mother them a little bit more and make sure that they're okay and protected and in their health and safety and their their well-being on all levels is addressed. So we had some, let me just say, in the bigger picture, in the moment, I felt like it was very deeply emotional moments because I tend to see, I read Energy Well, Reiki Master, blah, blah, blah. I can put all these labels on myself, but it doesn't matter. The point is that I can feel, I'm very empathetic, that I can feel and I can see people's patterns just by how they talk and what they say. And just like you probably can know my patterns with how I come across on this podcast, although I I'm constantly changing and open to new ideas and and always becoming something. And in the back of my head, I'm always aware of that. What do I want to become today to be to live a dynamic life? And when we hit these high points of highly emotional, like I'm talking like a little bit of a raised voice, very crying, tears in our eyes, you know, very deep, deep stuff. My sister calls me deep. I take that as a compliment because I go beyond the fluff and I go more into that point where what is the cause? What is the effect? What is the why behind everything? And I ask that around emotions as well, because I think, wow, I am playing a part for my mother, and my mother's playing a part for me. But in them, in the moment when the emotions are are happening and high, it could be because, for any amount of reasons, something's bothering you, circumstances outside of yourself are affecting or influencing you, maybe not enough sleep, which that's me. Because when you're in a caretaker position, you're always on alert, or at least I am, to the point where your sleep patterns do not work well. So I know there's some times that I didn't sleep well, and then I'm dealing with the just a routine that I had and then a two-hour time change throughout this time that I was with her. I know you adjust fast and all that stuff, but there's just some times you're up early just because, or you sleep in late just because through the night it was always like listening for her. She needed help, or she's uncomfortable, or whatever it might be laying in her bed. So somehow I could help her. So that triggers a lot of emotions through the day when you're just not getting a lot of sleep. And there's many times where I just had to stop and take a break and go, I'm just gonna go for a walk right now because my emotions are very high. And I don't want to say something or do something that's gonna come across where even though words are just words, they can affect you if you choose to let them affect you. And with my mom, without a doubt, she is one of my greatest mirrors in this lifetime. I'm sure we have a soul contract on that where she is just my mirror as far as like what does my soul need to evolve deeply about? What do I need to understand more about me? And in if you know, you know. And if you have someone in your life, whether it's a family member, a friend, partner, whatever it might be, that plays that part for you, look at from the bigger part, look at from the soul part. Me and whatever, you know, we're not seeing eye to eye on this and this and this. Take it back and go, what is this person showing me? What part is she they playing? What in me? Because it's my movie. Like it's my life, it's my movie. I'm I've created all this stuff. I'm co-creating with everyone and everything, and constantly being aligned with my highest and best through my universal connection. I often have to get out of the physicality of what is happening in the moment and take it to that broader perspective, that soulful level, and go, okay, what is the evolution here? And sometimes that's obviously not right in the middle of a big emotion. And so I think I've felt all of the emotions that I could feel there: sisters, brothers, cousins, friends, all of that stuff. And but just allowing myself to be more conscious until a couple times I wasn't as conscious in the moment because the emotion just overtook me. And I understood it. And I remember everyone that I've interviewed, uh, anyone that I've talked to about emotions, anyone that I've had discussion with is is it's not always Well let's stop right there and and turn around because this is off the cuff. The morning that the biggest emotion came, which is what I'm gonna share the most about, is I didn't get a good sleep the night before. Not an excuse, never an excuse, but just part of the cause of how this all unfolded. It was getting close to the time where I was going to be leaving from staying with my mom and taking care of her, so there was those underlining emotions around that. About you always have that thing, oh anytime I leave her, will I see her again? 92 years young, strong, strong lady that has got through so many different things in her life and and and has her mind, you know, very sharp. And just wondering, like, are am I am I when I leave this time, am I gonna see her? Because I have to take a plane to see her. Connections and stuff, almost eight hours to go see her and then come back. So there was that playing on my mind because it was getting closer to leave day. And then something really triggered me emotional. I'm not gonna, for personal reasons, share exactly what happened. But it was something that triggered me to the core of my being, and I reacted with such different emotion that like a deep passion came out of me, a deep emotion that had been emotions that have been stuck for so long in that, you know, so there was that interaction with my mom that so much came up. Like even all the stuff from childhood and you know, and just coming and asking her questions and trying to understand the why of stuff, and and just so I could learn more about why I do some of the things that I do. But there was laughing, there was crying, there was every emotion, not every, but because if you look at the emotional scale, there's there's quite a few listed there. But there there was all of these emotions that came in. But there was also through all of this more crying than laughing, obviously, there was all of this just release of stuff, release of these emotions that I've been holding on to and and having preconceived ideas all of these years of of certain things and and why certain things were the way they were and and then when it was you know, just just all of it got done. And then I said I just need to go sit down or I just need to go lay down for for a little while, mom, and then came back out and said, you know, I apologize that this is all uncomfortable with my emotions and she was emotional. I said, but we're here to help each other grow and let's heal some stuff, you know, let's let's get into it and and and just and heal it and so we can, you know, move on for bigger awareness. And so with that being said, we went and we chatted again. So, you know, sort of like round two. And I recognize that again, recognizing certain patterns along the way has really helped me now be a better person to my daughter. I think everybody is doing the best that they can do at the time, and I think that was the grace that had to come through my emotions, and just in the in the releasing of it all, and just being able to breathe after round two, round three week of of just discussing all of this stuff that brought up again so many emotions that there was this like okay soul perspective came in. Like, oh I guess we had to get through that, mom. I guess I guess we just break it all down to get to the core of stuff and just yeah, and and now it's like here it is. And if we can do that consciously when we're dealing with other people, or even the self-talk to ourselves is is just having some grace along the way. But having that moment of again release and then just this clear consciousness that came up was so monumental for me because then the rest of the days with my mom, there was nothing. I could just let things go a lot easier. I could, but you know how when you build up this stuff and you build up these emotions and then it comes out in different ways? I know you know what I'm talking about. And if you don't, you will now. You let things slide, you let things slide, you let things slide. And it could be with anyone or anything or any situation, and then all of a sudden it's just like, nope, this is what's triggering me, and now I need to address it. And if you've never had that, congratulations. But to the degree that you've had that will be to the degree that you feel like you've need to get through it, and you were needing to heal that part of you. Because I believe that we're here in this life path, everyone has their own for our own soul's evolution. And sometimes it feels good a lot of the time, sometimes it doesn't feel as good. But it's if you're consciously aware to go, it all starts within me, and I'm co-creating all this stuff, and I am and I am working through it all. I don't necessarily believe, and you don't have to send me any notes about this. I've said it before. I don't necessarily believe that we're here to learn lessons. I do believe that we are here to evolve. To me, there is a difference. It's a shift of energy, a shift of perspective. It's not just, oh, I've learned that lesson, okay, let's go on to the next lesson. No, I didn't like having lessons and doing lessons when I was in school for 12 years. Well, 12, 13, 14, 15. Well, a lot of years when you can consider the your 12 years and then into college a couple times and stuff and getting degrees. I didn't care for that too much. So I don't believe that that verbiage works for me as far as lessons. If you say I've come here to evolve and to find ways to feel good along the journey, and understanding that there's it is a journey, then then yes, that that falls under what it works for me. Doesn't have to work for you, it works for me. If you don't understand about emotions, but you find yourself being triggered a lot, angry, mad, frustrated, like all of those emotions that don't serve your well-being very well because it's very out of balance and very unaligned. But I understand we have to go through it. Something traumatic happens, good possibility we're gonna be sad. And then we're gonna go to the different emotions above grief and sadness. No one can tell you how fast, how slow, how whatever it's gonna be. It's your own progress, your own journey along the way of how. Feelings feel for you, and how you can find your balance, even if it's just a little glimpse of alignment and balance. We have tools, you know what works for you. You the top 10 feel good list, make one for yourself. No matter what you're going through, and and even if you don't think you can do it, please just do it because I know those little things that you can go to when you're feeling the emotions that don't feel good will certainly slowly help you. Or fast, it all depends how much and how important it is for you to feel a bit better if you're not feeling good. And if you're already in that high-flying place, having really good emotions, keep it up, keep going to that bliss, make intentional stuff for yourself every day. And that was one of the things, too, with that the day that the event happened with my that brought up the biggest emotion is that I was not intentional that morning, using like, hey, universe, universal team, whatever it is that I was feeling that day. Show me this, or show me how to be this, or you know, bring me this, and let's keep working on our journey, or whatever it might be, like very segment for the day. Some people get into segments for different parts of the day. But I didn't start my day that morning. I didn't start with my morning ritual of all the things I said before, and then I know my mom needed help in that morning. So it just didn't, you know, I didn't go back to it. Even though I could have done it and went back to it, I was just focused more on her well-being than my own, which is a good thing for me to remember as well. Is that my, even if it's one minute or five minutes or half an hour, however much time that you can have, try to always fit it in when you're either waking up or within moments after waking up. Even if you have to attend to something and then come back and do it, just do something that starts your day off right. You can do it while you're in the shower, while you're brushing your teeth, well, whatever it might be. Just take that time for your own self-care and your own well-being and to balance those emotions. So I know I'll talk more as we go because emotions don't have just one month. Emotions are constantly energy and motion that's flowing through you and every part of your life. And you know if you don't feel good, you know if you do feel good. So when you're feeling good, think more thoughts of feel good. And if you're not feeling good, then again, use the tools that you know for you that work to make yourself feel better. We're going on to a new theme next month, and so I just wanted to again get this out. So every uh every dynamic that we go over for this year and even last year can be seen, read, heard. Dynamicsseries.com, and then go to dynamics in the top menu. Go to whatever dynamic that that you need to address. And we have many resources multimedia things that can help you, blogs, vehicle videos, podcasts, posts. So to close up Dynamas community, just take this moment to reflect on the show around living a dynamic life around the subject of emotions and what resources will you use, right? How will you make this information that I share today and any other emotions resource and make it your own? What will you become from this? And we're always open to hear what how your journey is around whatever theme and whatever dynamics that we're covering. So there's many ways to do that. Best again to go to the website or you can send us a text right on the uh show notes as well. So, what now? We challenge you to take action, share the episode with someone who needs it, or explore our past recordings to keep this discussion alive on this subject or any other subject. Because your your dynamic journey doesn't stop here. There's so much more waiting for you. So we invite you to follow and subscribe and share and support and shift when needed. Dive into all our resources by visiting dynamicsseries.com or the actual podcast website, dynamicshow.info. And keep in mind all materials shared on this are copyrighted and meant for informational purposes. So until next time, thank you, thank you, thank you for tuning in to the dynamics show and align with your dynamic well being every day and make it a dynamic, emotionally balanced day, this day and every day. Okay, bye for now. Thanks for listening.